26.4.07

Confession time

OK, so where do I start.

Last Thursday, my wife and I were getting ready to go to work. Baby O was all dressed up and ready to go, so we put in in the centre of the bed. My wife went out of the room, and I was putting on my shoes. baby O must have rolling around as usual, but I had my back to her, so I couldn't see her. Then it happened.
I heard a loud thump, as my baby girl hit the wood panelled floor.

My heart immediately broke into a million pieces. I screamed, and then turned around, to see my baby on the floor. She was screaming her lungs out. I carried her, and managed to calm her down. We did a quick check, and there were no obvious signs of injury. I took her to day care, but I couldn't concentrate at work. I kept hearing the sound of her hitting the ground. Over and over again. I couldn't take it anymore, I ran downstairs to check if she was fine. She was. In fact, she'd mastered a new skill, she started to drag herself along the floor to reach anything of interest, which was reassuring. I checked on her twice more that day, I'm sure the day care staff were wondering what was going on !!Anyway, we thought the worst was behind us.

Thursday night, we put Baby O to bed, and after a while, she did an almighty vomit. Picked her up, cleaned her up, and she proceeded to vomit on the bed. Friday I worked from home, so I could look after her. She seemed fine all day. She started being sick again at night. Saturday was pretty bad, first, she threw up all over me at a wedding, then again in the car park. During a conversation with a friend who happens to be a paediatrician, I was made aware of the fact that there was a link between head injury and vomiting.

Oh dear God. What had I done to my baby girl? Had I damaged her for life? I was a mess. I spoke to my mum that night, who's also a doctor, and she said the same thing about the vomiting. Also, Baby O was sleeping a lot more than usual. I couldn't sleep. I woke my wife up and told her. We woke up Baby O who had been asleep for hours. We tried hard to feed her, she couldn't hold down any milk, but managed to take some baby rice. I was mortified. I felt useless. All I had to do was look after this little girl, and I'd let her down.

So Sunday, I called NHS Direct. The nurse said that it sounded like she had a stomach bug, but in case of a head injury we needed to see a doctor. So I went to see the Out of Hours GP. The out of hours GP said that she looked fine, but to be safe, we needed to see a paediatrician. So it was off to the hospital. The paediatrician said that she looked ok, but wanted to her the opinion of the registrar (sense a pattern?)

The registrar was a real stand-up guy. He explained that in today's world where a lawsuit was more common that the cold virus, it was common practice to pass the buck. So he gave it to me straight. Baby O was as active as ever, pulling everything she could, dragging herself on any surface she was put on, fighting off the doctors, she was as healthy as any seven month baby could be. But he pointed out there was a small chance that she may have a small bleed in her brain. He asked me to watch her carefully over the next 2 days. Any signs of increased drowsinesses or bile-like vomit, I should call them starightaway.The one missing symptom was diarrhoea. He said that if we saw any diarrhoea, then we should be happy, because it meant she had stomach flu.
So, he was letting us go, but he wasn't telling us everything was OK.

We got home. After all the activity at the hospital, she started sleeping again. As in all in the time. I was scared out of my wits. Fortunately, in a few hours, we confirmed that she had diarrhoea. So it looks like we have a stomach virus after all.

We're still not out of the woods yet, she's not eating properly, and she's weak from it. She's tired, and not as active, or happy as usual. But she's getting better.

I still feel terrible for letting her fall. But a quick search on the web made me realise it's not that uncommon, and more often than not, the kids always end up being ok in the end. Her drowsiness may be a symptom of something more serious, but I'm trusting God that she's ok.

I'm writing this post on Monday, but won't publish it till she starts again at day care, just to make sure she's ok.

BREAKING NEWS: An epidemic in the day care. I just got the email. Symptoms are :

1. Listlessness
2. Vomiting
3. Diarrhoea

I have never been so relieved in my entire life !! At least we know:

a. Where she got it from
b. That the behaviour isn't related to the fall !!
c. She will get better !!!

12 comments:

  1. Wow, I think I'd have been a wreck in that situation Boso! Still I'm glad things seem to be ok!

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  2. Suddenly, I want to have babies ... Not!

    Gosh! I could almost feel your pain, I last did a babysit 16 years ago and in 3 hours I was the most certified mad man in town.

    I'm glad everything does seem to be OK - nice to know a doctor who just gives the deal without spin.

    Best wishes to Baby O

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  3. YAYYY for baby O!!! I can't count how many times my sister fell when she was younger.

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  4. The tension came through the writing. It was like I was there myself. Thank goodness she's okay. I wouldn't have forgiven you.

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  5. Gosh. It must be nerve wracking having to figure out what is wrong with Baby O since she cant talk yet. I bet you cant wait for the day when she'll be able to tell you which part aches or ails herself. Thank God she's getting better now.

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  6. I'm glad she's on the mend now, Boso, hope she's entirely well soon, man, thats so scary.

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  7. aaaaaaaaaaahhhh! Sweet relief...I can very well imagine you hearing the thud over and over again..been there myself... every accident your baby has, you think it's your fault... I'm sure you know it was not your fault 'cos accidents will happen, no matter how careful you are.. I'm glad it wasn't more serious and she's already better.. I've learnt that kids are tougher than they look!

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  8. I know how you feel honey. It wasn't that long ago that I almost dropped the Peanut in the shower and in doing so I dis-located her elbow. It was like that for 15 hours before the hospital put it back in! I know the horror and disappointment you have in yourself. You are her parent and are suppose to protect her right? Well accidents happen. That is why they are called just that. Just think, you and I have YEARS of accidents awaiting us. Our girls only being 1 month apart and all! Take care hon and don't beat your self up too much!

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  9. Hey bro..am glad baby O is better..hey I cant even imagine what must have been running through your head...well bro if its any comfort they do say that kids are stronger than we give them credit for..thankfully all's well

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  10. stumbled on dis page..glad ur baby is okay..

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